One month complete.
So I've managed to survive the month. Not sure how it went by so fast. I got an email from my college supervisor about all the stuff we should be doing at this time. And man there is alot of stuff. but let's start with what's on my mind right now.
So yesterday, my co-op decided to not show up for work and left me with a sub. I mean at first I was a bit peeved that he didn't give me a warning or a heads up the day before. But when I met the sub, it got better. I decided to teach the Accounting class yesterday. It went surprisingly well. I got to know these kids more. They understood what I was saying and I felt like I actually had an inkling of what was going on in this accounting class. I've been stressing over on if I could teach this accounting stuff. I mean as long as I stick to the notes, I'll be fine. I like those kids, they're good kids. So yeah, that went well.
Math, I didn't want to teach them cause well, I hate word problems with a passion. They were a bit chatty. Oh well, it's Friday and they have a sub.
CCA9, same old same. I'm starting to study up on these kids' names. Flash-card style.. lol.. not really.
My lovely math class went okay. I mean it was hot and I was trying to figure out the projector while these kids are bugging me. lol.. I decided to use prezi to present notes to them and have a discussion about a related math problem (the parking meter as per Dan Meyer). Well, remember student 1 who likes pushing my buttons, well he pushed one to far. I told him to move back to his seat 4 times so I could start class. He wouldn't move, kept negotiating with me.. Than I had it, I said, "You know what, you can leave." Than he said "it's okay, I'll go back.".. Too late, button pushed, "Too bad, you lost your chance, you can come back on Monday, see ya".. That was that. I actually kicked a kid out of class. Than I continued with class, which went okay. They did some discussion which I was surprised they were all pretty engaged with. They were actually talking about math. It was weird, I thought they would go off track or something. The problem as usual with me is that when I teach outside of my realm of comfort, I get jumbled with my words. And I think the kids could see it too. I had a list of questions written down that I wanted them to discuss. I put them in groups of 3, so they could have one person write down the answers. It didn't work out that perfect. Some groups talked and some didn't know who their group was. Some didn't even move together as a group to discuss. All of them did not write anything down. So I think I need to work on planning out my lessons better, maybe practicing before hitting the stage. Typing out my lessons/questions also help, because when I read my own writing I tend to get lost reading my own writing. I should have waited until everyone knew who their group was before asking the questions. Making sure everyone is on the same page. Not sure how discussion will play a major part with me, since it's so out of my realm of teaching styles. But it's something I would like to try. I mean everyday is a new day.
Back to student 1, and how I dealt with the situation. So here's what my problem was, over the past year, I've been learning to never give up on a student no matter what. But than this kid comes into my class testing my buttons because I'm an intern, and my co-op suggests using him as your person to make an example of to gain the respect of the class. My co-op says kick em out if he's not willing to be a part of the class. And that's what I did. Was I right to do so? Did I give up on him? I mean I've had a talk with him and my co-op also had a talk with him. Did he lose his chance? Why is he giving me a hard time? Would have it been different if my co-op started the class from Day 1? I mean I know he's a good kid, he's not a trouble maker, he just needs a sweet kick in the arse to smarten up. Okay.. that's the issue that has been troubling me today.
But to just go back a bit. I've also had something positive on my mind. Yesterday, I had a revelation that I'm a teacher. Yesterday I was with another intern 1 and I saw two students from the Accounting class wandering the halls, and they addressed me "Hello Miss Mah".. that was just weird.. That was my revelation, me seeing those kids in the hallway outside of my class and saying hello to me. I think it was weird because I was with another intern/teacher and those kids addressed me and not anyone else. I felt special / liked.. ;)..
Later another incident also while another intern 2 was with me. Remember student 1, well after class I went to visit intern 2's class to chat. While she was packing up, I was standing in the hallway and student 1 was with his friends. He asked me "hey Miss Mah, did you mark me absent?" I said "Yes". He said "I just don't want to sit in that seat, it smells over there" I said "You know what, your not going to choose where you sit sometimes and you just have to suck it up. You don't get to have the luxury to pick a perfect seat. If you don't like it, than don't come to class and I'll mark you absent. So either you smarten up or don't come to class, your choice." I did this infront of his friends and intern 2. I wasn't mean, I just told him the honest truth. That was that, he didn't say anything. Intern 2 said I handled that really well. I was flattered in a weird way.
Edit: I also called a parent yesterday for the first time. I did really well! lol I hate talking on the phone. But I got the courage to do it. And might I say, I did good. I'm not going to mention the reason why I called. But it was a good conversation. I was confident and straight to the point.
So those incidents yesterday really made me realize that I'm definitely growing professionally and personally. I'm building those relationships (good or bad) with students that I thought I couldn't do at the beginning of the year. I'm dealing with situations that I've never realized I am strong enough to handle. Internship is really the make or break that determines whether you're cut out to become a teacher. I'm still learning, hopefully one day I'll master this "gig".
Mood: perked up
Edit: I have a sore throat.. darn teenagers and their germs.. grr..