justagurl24's thoughts

So here is a random thought.. I was sitting in class yesterday, thinking about my professor. Then thought about all of my other professors, these people have lives just like you and me. It's kind of funny how I said in a previous post that my students should see their teachers as "people" too. I guess I should do the same.

It's weird to think that one prof is so tough and straight to the point, and when they go home, they're a dad and he suddenly becomes so dedicated to their kid. It's like when I think about President Obama and how he's the leader of a country and when he goes home, he's just a dad.

I mean it's weird to see professors out and about whether it's grocery shopping or at a restaurant. But then I think again, these people need to eat too.

It's kind of random.. But I guess I just see what my students see me as. It's weird that there always is that invisible line.

Posted by rom559 at 06:26 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)

So it's been about two and half months since I've been out of the classroom. And you know what? I really miss it. I miss my classroom. I miss my kids. I miss teaching. Being back at school feels so redundant. I'm learning about stuff I really don't care about.

So when or if I get my first job, will I remember or even know how to teach? Or to borrow a phrase from the 40 year Old Virgin, "If I don't use it, will I lose it?" Will l have to start from scratch again? I mean last year we had the opportunity to student teach at the end November and March. So I continously got the chance to teach. I think internship should be for the whole year until March. Then, April can be the month where everyone looks for jobs and prepare themselves for the real world. But no, we have to come back. Apparently, the college is revamping the program. But from what I've read from the new programs, there really isn't much of a difference. Damn college, they tell us to listen to our students. Why don't they try practicing what they preach? It just nerves me the wrong way.

Reverting back to what I was saying, I want to teach again!!! There are probably oppurtunities where I can volunteer to teach in a classroom. But I don't think it will feel the same. I don't know, maybe I should look into that. I just really want a classroom of my own, with my own students. I get excited just thinking about it.

Change of subject, I think I'm moving to wordpress. I'm trying to select a good theme before I move though. I'll try to add my e-portfolio, or parts of it onto wordpress.

Okay.. until then.

Posted by rom559 at 03:52 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)

I was flipping through my old yearbook today. It reminded me the kind of person I was. If anyone who knew me now that knew me back then, no one would ever give me a second glance. Is redemption possible? Have I changed? I don't know. I feel like I have. I wish I could go back and tell my past self that life will get better. There is always a silver lining. You just have to wait.

The whole social/popularity contest in school was so overrated, now that I think about it. I wasn't given the opportunity to speak up, express my opinion, or share my ideas. I desperately wanted to someone to notice me at least once in the day. I think about how some kids today, go through days without even being acknowledged. I think about the cliques formed in schools. Is this how we are divided up in society? Soon after graduation, cliques dissolve, personas dissapear, and people drift apart. I don't talk to any of my classmates from highschool. Is that a good thing or bad thing? If I did, I think they would still see as me as who I was in highschool.

I'm really grateful for all the people I have met after highschool. They can see me from a brand new start. No past involved. See me as who I am. As I was intended to be.

I'm also glad my students will never have to see who I was in the past. If they did, they would see how much of a coward I was. Again, I can start fresh in all of the new relationships I make.

So, should I even consider redemption? Or just close that door behind and leave it be?

Mood: reflective

Posted by rom559 at 06:30 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)

So I found a camera.

A few months ago, I came across this post from Russell Davies. He talked about how to improve yourself to be more interesting to others. The things he suggest are pretty much like New Year Resolutions, but I like them anyways. He based this on two assumptions:

"The way to be interesting is to be interested. You’ve got to find what’s interesting in everything, you’ve got to be good at noticing things, you’ve got to be good at listening. If you find people (and things) interesting, they’ll find you interesting.

The marvelous thing about tinterweb is that it’s got great tools for being interested and great tools for sharing. So I’ve used them a lot. It should, of course, be obvious that there are many other ways to be interesting. Some of them don't involve computers at all. These are just 10 things, and if you do them you’ll get more interesting. Or at the very least you’ll start practising the skills of being interesting."

Here are the list of things he suggests:

1. Take at least one picture everyday. Post to flickr.
2. Start a blog. Write a sentence at least once a week.
3. Keep a scrapbook.
4. Every week, read a magazine I've never read before.
5. Once a month interview someone for 20 minutes, work out how to make them interesting. Podcast it.
6. Collect something.
7. Once a week sit in a coffee-shop or cafe for an hour and listen to other people’s conversations. Take notes. Blog about it. (Carefully)
8. Every month write 50 words about one piece of visual art, one piece of writing, one piece of music and one piece of film or TV. Do other art forms if you can. Blog about it
9. Make something.
10. Read a book. (this one I changed)

Here is the original post: how to be interesting

I'm going to try some of these. Not sure about the scrapbooking.. but we'll see if I have time.

BTW: I updated the "About Me" post plus I'm trying to clean up this blog by editing some posts.

Posted by rom559 at 09:55 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)